Sunday, June 27, 2010

Things I Don't Know.

And things I do.

I don't know what it is like to pee on a stick and know whether there will be a baby in my future.  I do know what it is like to fill out mountains of paperwork, be interviewed, have a stranger dissect your life, reveal secrets, be fingerprinted, have my background checked to make sure I am not a pedophile or child abuser - all in the name of the lack of pee stick decisiveness.

I don't know what it is like to watch a belly grow and feel "your" baby kick.  I do know what it is like to pray continually and lovingly for a baby somewhere kicking in someone else's belly.  I do know what it is like to have faith the size of a mustard seed and watch it grow to faith the size of a mountain when you meet that woman and that baby and realize they are the ones you have been praying for all along.

I don't know what it is like to give the opportunity to your family to plan a shower with a definite "have to have this shower by such-and-such a date".  I do know what it is like to have a family who is so loving and so accepting of your children that they plan a shower on a whim when that baby finally arrives.  I do know what it is like to watch them love on your babies with no regard for where they came from or the color of their skin.  I do know what it is like to love your family and friends even more because they don't ask any questions, they just love.

I don't know what it is like to have a newborn mushy, gooey and bloody baby placed on your chest the instant they take their first breath and call them yours.  I do know what it is like to take a baby who is clean and already loved on from a woman who is giving you the best gift you could ever imagine.  I do know what it is like to instantly give your heart, soul and total being to that baby AND that woman all within an instant.

I do know the love of God because I see it every day in my family.  I know this love because He loves us the same way.  He loves us and knows us before we ever exist.  His love for us is instant and spontaneous.  It has no regard for color or place or origin.  It.just.is.  I want to love like that.  And my children and their mothers have shown me how.  I wouldn't change it for all the pee sticks and gooey babies in the world.

I love my family.  It is perfection.

Saturday, June 26, 2010

Fun Filled Summer.

It has already been such an awesome summer and it's not even July yet!  Since I am still using my FMLA I am only working three days a week.  This leaves me four days in a row to enjoy my sweet family.  It has been wonderful.  There have been so many adjustments to our life lately (new baby, new job, new house - aren't you only supposed to do one of those things at a time???) that it has been such a blessing for me to have this time to help us all adjust.

This past Thursday I took the kids to Asbury Park.  They have an awesome new splash area for little ones and KJ had the best time.  I have a dear friend who is here from out-of-state waiting on their ICPC so they were able to join us.  It was so great.  I know I don't usually share pics of the kids on this blog but I had to put this one of KJ enjoying the water with his little friend C.

I spent many summers at Asbury Park as a kid.  Our church had events at nearby Ocean Grove.  I love it there and it brought back lots of good memories.  I hope you are having an awesome summer too!

Monday, June 21, 2010

New Design.

Do you like the new blog design??  Lisa over at Little-Did-I-Know did it for me.  It is part of her adoption fundraiser and I was happy to help out.  I think it is super cute!

On the family front... I got a text from N's first mom on Saturday!  I was so excited and happy to see her name pop up at the end of the text.  I haven't heard from her since we left their home state.  Through each letter I sent I put my cell number at the bottom.  Letting her know that if she were ready and wanted to she could call or text me anytime.  I am so glad she took me up on the offer.  I hope we keep in contact. 

Saturday, June 5, 2010

Hey blog land!

Sorry again for the massive blog break.  Things here in our household have been just shy of nutzo!  The move went well and we are almost fully settled in.  We decided to go super minimalist in our move and got rid of A LOT of stuff that we had not even seen in years.  We lived in our house for four years and there were some things that never even made it out the basement.  Now why oh why were we holding onto these things???  I think we all have stuff like that, things we think we'll need *someday* and you find you never really do.

I also wanted to share this information from Nightlight Embryo Adoptions.  They are looking for families to adopt multi-ethnic embryos.   I admit, embryo adoption used to freak me out, think Sigourney Weaver in Alien... yah, that.  Anyway, the idea has grown on me a bit lately and I don't think "Alien" anymore.  Not saying it is for our family, but maybe it is for yours!  Something to consider... Just click on the link below.