Wednesday, March 10, 2010

Tough stuff.

Today I got some paperwork regarding our match.  It was legal stuff and "E" had signed it, it was then sent to us.  I saw her signature on there today and just started crying.  Crying in my office!  I know that people don't get, those who have not adopted anyway.  And sadly, some who have adopted or are waiting don't get it either. This is a woman who is contemplating parting with her child and she has tentatively chosen you to raise that child as your own.  You just can't understand that feeling unless you've been there.  It was just heart wrenching.

On a lighter note... the cradle in the picture from the last post is not ours!  LOL It is just a picture I grabbed off of some site.  I like illustrations in my posts.  Makes things a little more interesting.  We do have a really cute Moses basket though...

7 comments:

Melba said...

Wow. Sometimes when I contemplate the enormity of that decision...that situation, it humbles me. I can understand why you started crying right there at work.

But there is beauty in it too--in the fact that this prospective birth mom has seen a ray of hope in you.

Good vibes,

Melba

Andi said...

I know, Melba. It doesn't help that I am also at that very emotional time of the month! ;) xoxo

rlvd said...

i hear ya- been there done that, still get there still do that...hope i always will- it's love

michelle said...

Oh Andi, bless your heart. Thanks for getting it.

A Moses basket...how precious! :)

familyofthree said...

I so get what you're saying. I was ecstatic for about four hours after getting "the call"... then the sorrow of it all set in. It was a really... "weird" time, I guess. Awkward b/c everyone expects you to be over the moon, and it's not that you AREN'T happy... it's that you know your joy comes from someone else's sorrow. How you can feel 100% *anything* about that at all times?

And for your sidenote -- I wondered if it was a stock photo, but then I thought maybe it might be something passed down from like your great-great-grandfather or something, and then I didn't want to offend with the "stock photo" guess! haha ;) Either way, it's a beautiful picture, and I'm betting the Moses basket is just as sweet! :)

jsi said...

Your deepest joy connected to someone's deepest sorrow. What a powerful day.

Debbie B said...

Yay! Congratz.
I remember so well the crushing feeling when I got the call telling me M had signed relinquishment. It was one of the saddest moment.
And good for you for not sharing info that is not yours to share.