Since we are not using an agency this time the waiting is also not the same. There is no wondering where our profile is, who is seeing it, who is basically controlling our adoption journey. We know all these things this time and there is a certain level of comfort in control. I admit it openly. And I know I am not the only one who feels this way. Fess up, ladies! Control is key! But ultimately God is in control. So even if we were the only couple an expectant mom had to choose from, it is still in His hands. And in that I find peace. Even if it means relinquishing some of that beloved control.
"I know what I'm doing. I have it all planned out—plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for." Jeremiah 29:11