Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Waiting?

I guess you could say we are officially "waiting" - in adoption terms.  I mean, our home study is done, we have all of our legal clearances complete, we are "approved" adoptive parents (thank you NY state for that stamp of approval), we have an infant seat, diapers, bottles, pacifiers, butt cream, you name it - we got it.  But things just are not as intense this time around.  I just don't know how else to explain it.  Yeah, waiting does stink, but I cannot complain.  My house is full of the laughter and the silly dance moves of my precious boy.  It is stressful to not know what will happen next but life is good.

Since we are not using an agency this time the waiting is also not the same.  There is no wondering where our profile is, who is seeing it, who is basically controlling our adoption journey.  We know all these things this time and there is a certain level of comfort in control.  I admit it openly.  And I know I am not the only one who feels this way.  Fess up, ladies!  Control is key!  But ultimately God is in control.  So even if we were the only couple an expectant mom had to choose from, it is still in His hands.  And in that I find peace.  Even if it means relinquishing some of that beloved control.

"I know what I'm doing. I have it all planned out—plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for." Jeremiah 29:11

2 comments:

jsi said...

It is easier to wait when you have the minute by minute reminder from your son about the joy that a child can bring...and its good to know you have more control over the whole situation. Do you know if you will have a chance to name your next child?

Maggie said...

Hey! I just came across your blog from another blog that I read. My husband and I are foster parents, and are open to adoption if that is where fostering leads to. I love your story - and your little boy is adorable! We blog about our experience as foster parents at http://the-popps.blogspot.com - feel free to stop by! Thanks for sharing your story.